Wednesday, 14 November 2012

Lightbringer 006

Chapter Five (first part)

Into the Woods

Adrian had hoped that he would forget the insanity of The Critic, but he could still vividly remember every detail from his conversation. How he had left the house was already hazy. And how the fuck he had ended up here in the depths of the primeval Canadian forest was a total mystery to him. But he was well equipped it seemed. He was carrying a gigantic backpack which was trying to make him fall over backwards with every step. While Adrian did not know the details of what he was lugging around, he knew in his heart of hearts that he was perfectly prepared.

He felt that he was near his goal. There were two names on his list that he had circled with a pen, these two names were close. Why on earth they had chosen the deep Canadian wilderness as a hangout was as inexplicable to Adrian as was why he had chosen to go after them instead of someone who lived in a big comfortable city full of big comfortable hotels. He had to admit that neither cities nor hotels had done him any good. It was also nice to have a change of scenery. The evening was closing sending its chill ahead to make its approach known to all. The sun was still holding onto the sky sending shafts of its crimson light into the forest illuminating the sparse underbrush of the deep forest. The ground was mostly in a thick layer of dead leaves forming a thick soft cushion filling he air with their typical smell of almost earth.

Turner climbed over the massive trunk of a tree that had fallen many years ago. He grabbed a fern that had made his home out of one of the sunnier spots on it pulling him self over the trunk taking care that his treacherous backpack did not unbalance him sending him flying to his certain doom. Behind the trunk the ground began to slope softly downward leading to a spot where for some reason a large portion of the ancient trees had fallen giving rise to a wild tangle of plants all racing in slow motion towards the open sky, trying to reach it before anyone else so that they may establish themselves in a place that was eternally under the sun. It was there that Turner suspected that he would find the people he was looking for.

There was a sound of cracking branches. Some one was trying to break through the underbrush preferring a brute force approach to finesse. Stood still, waiting with crossed arms for whom ever was going to break out from the copse in front of him.

What broke with sudden fury into to the open was a grizzly bear.

Adrian’s brain turn off all processes that were not utterly relevant to a being attacked by sudden bears. Time slowed down as all the focus went into the situation at hand and how to get out of it. The bear had broken through the underbrush standing up, looking extremely impressive and sooo much bigger than on TV. Once out of the thick vegetation it had made a jump forwards and was now charging on all fours. Even in mortal danger time the bear, as huge and impressive like a steam powered angry barn, was fucking fast. It looked all fat and round and well slow, but in two, three strides it had covered more than a third of the space between him and Adrian.

Options! Adrian’s brain demanded.

a) Fall down. Lie still. Play dead. That works on bears. Right?
Problem! Backpack weighs more than the sins committed by high ranking politicians in a month. Thus it will lead to slow death by suffocation. Maybe made worse by bear sitting on top eating rations.

b) Fall back. Maybe screaming and waving arms. Some dude on a survival TV show did that. Bears were impressed and backed away looking for a less crazy snack.
Problem! Falling over backwards. Lying on back. Like a turtle. Soft belly exposed. Pinned down by evil physics defying backpack. Instant bear snack.


Special news bulletin, bear now three quarters of the way towards soft easily ruptured body.

C) For fucks sake. Take axe from belt. Throw bear inn the face! Show him who’s boss.
PROBLEM! Fumbling it out of belt great risk! Not a Norse axe thrower. Possible results: missing bear, hitting bear with some blunt side of axe which axe is mostly made of thus making bear angrier or axe actually hitting bear with business end but making bear even more furious. Also bear would then also have an axe.



d) Bear doesn’t give a shit and runs past by us. Leaving only a faint trail of bear in a great hurry smell.

Adrian felt relived and very secretly, very, very slightly offended.

Behind him the bear vanished in the depths of the Canadian wilderness.

Adrian failed to relax. He tried to find some amusement in realising that while the bear was quite a threatening presence only a moment ago, that he was heading towards what had scared the bear so much in the first place. Maybe, he thought, what ever that was is on my side? While he made his way carefully down the slope, his little axe now in his hand he wondered if hope really died last or if it was not more plausible that it was life that got extinguished after hope had sensibly decided to go and look for more promising pastures.

Monday, 12 November 2012

Lightbringer 005

Chapter 4

Sound Advice

He remembered. Not how he came to stand in this entrance hall. A small room that had difficulty holding all its doors and stairs and that big front desk in place but it held it together. Adrian now realised that ‘how’ wasn’t important. He knew why he was here. That was important. He walk a few steps over the plushy 70s refugee carpet towards the front desk. An enormous mahogany dinosaur of a desk that by its sheer size dominated the room along with everyone in it. Behind the desk sat an androgynous person in clad in colours painstakingly combined in the most eye watering manner possible.


“I’m here to see the Critic”

“You don’t have an appointment.”

“No. I was sent here by a mutual friend and he told me that I could see him today.” Turner thought that the gifts f the Devil could start working for a change.

“A mutual friend?” the acid trip escapee was not impressed. “Does that friend have a name?”


The receptionist hesitated for a moment. “OK. You can go and talk to The Critic. Be careful though he is listening to music right now and he hates to be interrupted.”

“Which door?” Turner asked.

“The stairs to the right” the colour out of space nodded towards one of the stairs, “first floor door to the left.”


As he was walking upstairs the receptionist added “Don’t break his flow.”


The door left of the stairs looked ordinary enough at first sight yet as Turner opened it he discovered that it was a very thick wooden block of a door, that was heavily padded from the inside revealing another equally padded door right behind it. He could also hear the faint thumping of deep loud bass sounds trying to escape their prison. The inner door would not budge.

“It won’t open until the outer door is closed.” came from below.

Turner moved inside the cramped space between the doors pulling the outer door shut behind him. That left him with hardly and room left to move. Had he not been on a strict forgotten musician on tour diet he may not have fit at all. At least the space between the doors had neat reverse fridge-light going on, where a couple of small LEDs that were nesting in the padding started shining. They provided enough illumination for Turner to locate the handle of the other door. As he pressed it down the sound proofing seal on the door frame was broken and he was overwhelmed by music.

Turner might have staggered by a step or tow if not for the closed outer door behind him. The soft thumps of bass he had hared before were now crashing right through him. His whole body was forced into resonance with the music. There was so much sound all around him that the first thing that he noticed was the smell of leather and old record covers. The information Turners brain was receiving from his eyes were given secondary priorities for the moment. As the vibration of his entire being was connected to the sound and the sound was resolved into what was probably music, the room was allowed to come into focus.

It was a large space. Turner could have fitted his first three flats into it and have had enough room left for a nice little garden. The floor, the ceiling and the wall were all covered in padded leather. The leather was red, the one associated with wizened professors and fireplaces. The room appeared to be the result of an unique leather chair that had grown so large that it had started to fold into itself. The centre of it held three insect like chairs built to please some alien aesthetic first and human physiology second. All three of them were of matte black colour, carefully wrapped in some kind of spongy fabric. The central one was holding the figure of man who the moment Turner had entered had held up his left hand, to indicate that Turner should hold his breath until the piece the man was listening too was finished. Adrian was very thankful that the inner door closed itself. While he was confident that he could have strangled an elephant with anyone hearing anything, he was sufficiently intimidated by The Hand of The Critic to try to be as quiet as possible.

The Critic and his chairs were surrounded by carefully placed speakers. They looked rather plain in contrast to the chairs. Almost six feet tall but slender they did exude a certain professional nonchalance. These speakers were so far on top of the line that they needed no fancy branding, shocking colours or strange cases. They simply pumped out their sounds to the best of their ability which was equal to the limit of human technology at the time of their making. They were the best and they knew it.

One circle beyond were the pipes that held the cables, connecting the speakers to their amps, laid out in a grid that formed the modern equivalent of a summoning circle. The Main amp was sitting proudly in his cabinet, holding court over his many vassal amps, carefully passing on the secrets that he had gleaned from his records.

The last circle were the cabinets that held the records themselves. All of them crafted to perfectly fit the walls. Uniformly padded to not break the sound of the room. Their doors were closed but someone had gone through the trouble of marking them with gold leaf. Turner could see that they were ordered by years, only declaring what type of record they held. Starting from phonoautogramms, moving to shellac and vinyl records, CDs, audio-DVDs, to Blu-Ray disks and a myriad of other formats.

The music itself did not quite make sense to Adrian. As he was examining the room he was trying to get into the groove of the sound. However always when he thought that he had found the core of the piece that held it all together, the core dissolved into several new strands. He wasn’t even sure what kind of music he was listening to in the first place. It did remind him of some of the more extreme forms of free jazz, but then there was a lot of metal in the music too with a dash of post-rock added just for the heck of it. Turner was not impressed. However before dismissing the music he attempted to understand it. He had his principles. One of them was that he would not look down on any kind of music before he was not confident that he had grasped it. So he opened up the the record trying to understand it. There was hardly any melody, mostly a wall of sound, always in motion always changing. While it was not his cup of tea he could see the craft behind it, the work that had gone into weaving this strange fluctuating experience. He got lost in the music being drawn back to the present only after the piece was over and was replaced by muffled silence.

The Critic had paused the player. He had turn around in his strange chair now facing Truner. One leg hanging from an armrest. In one hand he held his remote control like a sceptre with the other hand he rubbed his chin.

“What did you think of that?” The Critic asked.

“Hard to tell. I don’t understand that music, yet.” Adrian said.

“You can stay.” The Critic said. He got up and pointed at a chair with his free hand. “Please sit down.” He moved one chair further to the right and sat back down again. Turner sat down, quite surprised that at how comfortable the chair was. Actually it was a comfortable as it was horrid.

“Granted you have not yet quite made a connection with the music you just heard, still you must have an opinion. Share it.” the Critic looked at Turner with what seemed to be genuine interest.

“The music was very complex. Many layers. Often losing harmony and what little melody there is. But it all held together really well. Every note played made sense.” He thought a bit longer about what he had just heard, while the Critic lent forward listening with a ferocious intensity. “The beat was pretty much awesome. Was not always there. Like the rest it was going in and out of focus, but when it came to the forefront it was very mellow and strong. So despite it not really being my style it was actually pretty decent. Interesting in the best sense of the world. Apart from one thing.” Turner winkled his nose.

“And what was that?” the Critic arched his eyebrows, leaning slightly back.

“Well there were moments when the ‘singer’ was growling which was a bit ridiculous.”

“That was not ridiculous, it was an accent. It had a primal strength to it that would have been ruined by anything as mundane as a simple humane voice. Also considering what the have done with the voices of their instruments it hardly seems fitting to not do it to the voice too.”

“If you say so. To me it still sounded like someone had dropped 150 watt amp on the foot of the singer…”

The critic laughed. “I like that one.” The critic was still smiling but was now serious again. “So you don’t like the growlers then?”

“To be quite frank I hate them.”

The Critics face was impassive. “Anything else you… hate?”

“Sure loads of stuff. Country? I fucking hate country. And rap or is it hip-hop? Is there even a difference? Oh and R’n’B which has neither rhythm nor any kind of blues. Fuck that shit.” Adrian was just getting started.

“Never hate.” The Critic said.


“Never. Hate.”

“But that music is shit!”

“No it isn’t. Maybe you don’t like it. Or you don’t understand it. Or it is not to your taste. But music is never shit. Never.”

“Oh yeah? And when when its just three badly played riffs and the only time the bass and percussion are in the pocket is because if they try long enough they are bound to get it right sometime?”

“Don’t hate, man! Learn. Listen to it. First of all try to find out if it is you or the music. If it’s you, because you are not getting it or are feeling protective of your own shit. Let go of it. Learn to listen. Do it over and over again until you know it.”

“I always do that!”

“Yet here you are hating. What the fuck man? And even if the music isn’t good. Be thankful because the easiest way to learn is by avoiding the shit other people do. The next time you listen to something and think ‘wow that was some abominable shit right there!’ the next time you do that you have to stop and think to your self: ‘Hmmm I wonder why that didn’t work.” and try to see a way to make it better. Do you understand? The people who make the ‘bad’ music are our greatest teachers so show some respect OK?”

“Yeah. But…”

“No. Buts! Just stop heating. What do you think that’ll achieve huh? Are you going to hate the music away? Do you think the guys who make the stuff you don’t like give a shit? They will probably not even hear your silly ranting because the cash register is being so loud when they go and get their royalties. In the end you will end up with an ulcer or shit like that and they will live happily ever after. Does that sound clever to you?”

“Well. No. Not really.”

“See there you go. Do. Not. Hate. First it will make you a much more likable person and it will help you grow as an artist. OK?”

“OK.” Adrian said feeling slightly shocked. That was an unexpected little outbreak. To make matters worse The critic was kind of right. Now that he came to think of it there were a few ‘artists’ that were really high on his personal list of disdain whose stuff he could take and turn it into something decent without breaking a sweat.

“Sorry about that. One of my pet peeves. So. Adrian Turner…” the Critic Lent back again forcing his chair into a more comfortable position. His legs now both dangling over one arm rest using the other as back rest. “What brings you here to me then?”

“You know who I am.” Turner was almost surprised, but his surprise was gagged and bound by his world weariness before it could get anywhere. “Who told you that I’d come.” Rhetorical question, Turner knew the answer to that already.

“Told me, that you’d come? No one.” The Critic replied. Turner had to admit that this answer had only a few letters in common with the one he was thinking of.

“Have we met?” Turner asked.

“Have we met he asks! Of course we have met. Many hundreds of times. Me and you we go way, way back.”

“Really? Shit. I’m sorry I am having trouble with my memories lately.”

“Don’t worry. This is the first time that we see eye to eye. When you were still a big star burning in the sky I was a professional adolescent and not yet The Critic. Sadly as my star rose yours faded away.” The Critic inclined his head slightly. He smiled a happy little smile. “But it kept on burning for all these years, didn’t it.”

“Music is my life, I would not know what else to do.” Turner kept his voice carefully under control, so that what he said sounded cool and not as desperate as it felt inside of him.

“I’m glad to see that there is still Rock in you Turner.”

“But still how did you recognise me?”

“Your voice. I’ve listened to you so many times I could identify you in the dark. Your face helped although you’ve grown old. That makes it harder. Neither do I have a picture of you that isn’t older than 20 years nor is my memory for faces all that good.”

“I’m impressed and flattered. Only my most hardcore fans would recognise me these days when I am not on stage with…” Adrian remembered that there was no band anymore. “No. I think these days no one would recognise me anymore.”

The Critic smiled as if that was the best thing he had heard all day. “Perfect.”

“If you want me to kick the living shit out of you, you just have to ask, no need to get personal.” Adrian said.

“Personal? Wh…? No you misunderstand. Look at you Adrian Turner. You are not some run of the mill musician that has had a little dent in his career. You were once a rock god. You are a legend. A forgotten legend.”

“And how is that supposed to make me feel better?” Adrian replied through clenched teeth.

“Because you still are! A legend I mean. I have been listening to you for almost all my life. You exploded into the scene in the early eighties and it was remarkable. Especially if you listen to your really early stuff. Like I did. That was OK but not exceptional.”

“Is that also supposed to make me feel better?” Adrian fled into open the arms of sarcasm.



“Open your eyes Adrian.” The Critic shouted. “There you are. A snot nosed teenager with some skill on the guitar and a hand full of solid demo tapes. That should not have gotten you very far. And yet not one year later you fucking thermonuclear exploded into the realm of music. I have no idea what happened but boy was that a leap forward. Again this is not that special. If you know where and how to listen you will hear hundreds if not thousands of guys and girls like you suddenly ignite. But then you just went on and became better. And better. And better. While others were already gone or to busy doing drugs and hookers you kept getting better for a decade. And then and this is my favourite part:” The Critic’s eyes were now large and shining, “when all around you genres were going extinc, sinking into obscurity losing their grip on humanity you just did it again you magnificent bastard. There you were the types of music that had made you great and that you had made great were turning to ashes around and you gave it another push. Sure you vanished from the main stream but your fans you millions of fans could see how you were burning with new creative energy. I talked to people who had been listening to your music since your early days of stardom. These people, when you talk to them they are still filled with a deep sense of wonder, they actually start to talk softer there eyes wide with wonder when they talk about what you did back then. They remember to this very day how after more than ten years you still managed to surprise them and blow them away with your music!”

OK. That was kind of nice to hear, Turner had to admit.

“And then, no one knows what really happened you start to fade away. You fade but you never die. You have a chance only very few people have. You are a hidden king. Your star can burn bright again. You can return.”

Turner was at a loss for words. He felt pride swelling in his chest and embarrassment blooming in his face. He cleared his throat. “Thank you for the kind words. er… Well. While I don’t really plan a comeback, I am looking for some exceptional musicians and I was hoping that you could point me into the right direction.”

“What’s the idea? Are you trying to mentor some promising musicians? Are you going to make a new band?”

“I am not quite sure. But I know that I need to bring together some exceptional musicians.”

“What for?”

“What for? To rock the fucking world down to its very foundations, of course. After our first concert I expect that the police will have gotten calls from dead gods complaining about the noise.”

“A noble mission if there ever was one.” The Critic said. “I will give you a list of people that can help you with your endeavour. you have to be careful though.”


“Yes. You have to pull this off the right way if you want to succeed.”

“I still don’t follow you.”

“We have established that you are a legend, right?”

“Right?” Adrian had still no idea where this was going.

“The piece of music I had immersed myself into when you arrived. You listened to it and I have to admit that for someone who is not a critic you have shown to have a rather keen ear.”

Adrian just nodded to encourage the Critic to go on.

“I have listened to music professionally for decades now so I do hear deeper, much, much deeper than most other people. I hear the music, the rhythm, the theme, but I can hear further. I hear the struggle of the musician that work on it. I can hear the whispers of their souls. I feel the context, the Zeitgeist, the culture from which this music was born. In m mind I see how they are all connected. What we just heard was song of a broken heart. The sound that is produced by a soul that is slowly losing all its illusions that if had about its culture. Akin to the child that discovers that its parents aren’t perfect, the adult soul may discover that its culture also is flawed. In this case there is no other culture to replace the old. There is only the struggle between several different civilisations all of them flawed in different ways, all broken and the soul is left alone to fend for it self as it has not yet found it in itself to trust other souls. And see! There is the genius the music is made from different people all individual all lonely in the same way and they make this music that reflects how alone they are, despite having found others exactly like them. See? And there is of course the meta narrative of the parallel soul para-civilisation construct…”

“That is really” ‘rally crazy’ Adrian thought, “fascinating. I can’t quite see what this has to do with my plan though.” he remembered now that Lucifer had warned him that The Critic had past the demarcation line of genius to venture into the realms beyond.

“Everything!” The Critic said with burning eyes, “You cannot simply go out there. Knock on doors. Ask questions. Make a fucking casting. You have to invoke the powers of legend!”

“The powers of legend.” Turner had once read somewhere that you could get people to talk more by paraphrasing what they just had said. He hoped that The Critic might start to make sense again or at least give him enough time to come up with a good excuse to leave.

“Yes! There are powerful forces in stories. And what is music but a story told in emotions?”

Totally insane but he has a point there. “Agreed. So how do I harness that force?”

“Up until now you have only walked on the surface. Now you have to dive right in. Stop chasing after music. Be music. Follow its form and it will form you. Once you do that you’ll be in harmony with music. You will see, once that has happened things will come together quite naturally. Instead of you following the story, the story will follow you.”

“OK. I’ll just walk right ahead, go real deep and the story will just follow.” Turner said wondering what the fuck that even meant.

“Right.” The Critic seemed to be happy.

“So, about that list?”

“Of course, of course. Let’s go down to the reception I’ll give you the names you need. Oh and there is something else?”

“Really? What’s that?” Turner hoped it would not be another strange, crazy rant.

“Once you start moving inside the story you will know it by its trappings. That way you will be at an advantage when things should start to go wrong. Like in the horror movies? You know? With the serial killer and the stairs?”

“No running upstairs and if a serial killer appears with a knife shoot him in the face?”

“Just like that! Great. Now. Now you are ready to go out there and become the next chapter of your legend.” The Critic got up prompting Adrian to follow him.

Ten minutes later he left the house of The Critic with a list of names in his pocket and relief in his heart.

Now he had enough candidates to start three bands. Even if half of them refused his call he would still have more than enough people to do some serious rocking. Actually now that he almost had a team together he could start planing their next step.

Form now on things seemed easy and clear.

He was wrong.

This was the point where shit got surreal.

Sunday, 11 November 2012

Lightbringer 004

Chapter 3 (continued and finished) / Intermission

Max Stryker’s house was located in a former industrial district that had been refurbished into a clandestine suburb. This part of the city had once been part of the manufacturing machine that had made this region prosper. As the money was tempted away to other places were labour was cheap the quarter died a slow death leaving behind the decomposing corpses of factories and storage spaces. As it is so often the case with nature, when a niche opens up there is always someone happy to make a home out of it. The large buildings mostly full of space and atmosphere started to attract artists of all sorts, providing them with enough room for ateliers, workshops, rehearsal rooms and venues in which to present the fruits of their work. As the years past the quarter evolved from the hiding place of a few crazy non-conformists to a Boheme sanctuary into a busy neighbourhood full of all kinds of fringe arts. As it grew popular it also became temptingly profitable. The old revolutionaries that had re-vitalised this part of the city were quietly evicted, replacing them with more palatable alternatives surrounded by the right kind of shops, cafes and of course premium condos.

The old storage building where Stryker had his loft was located at the furthest edge of the district, right next to an derelict freight depot which by now had turned into a park with post-apocalyptic pretensions. There even was a rust eaten container car, cut open to function as a open air stage.

After Turner had gone through the usual ‘Who is there’s ‘And it’s me’s, he found him self in a freight elevator with keyholes instead of buttons for controls. From the people he had met so far Stryker seemed to have made the most money. Or maybe he just enjoyed spending it with more enthusiasm than the more down to earth Lockwood had. Turner saw this as an advantage. This meant that Stryker could be lured towards the project with cash while the work itself would make him stay. The elevator doors opened to a loft that was somehow smaller than expected. Despite it being only sparsely furnished, it has a slightly cramped feeling about it. Most of the room was taken by musical equipment. There was a wall of amps. Guitars of all makes and types on stands, on racks, in half open carrying cases or simply lying around on what little furniture there was. Towards the window front facing the park was what looked like a proper little studio all complete with microphones and a mixing desk larger than the surface area of the kitchen located at the other end of the loft.

Everything was giving off a wonderful rock’n’roll vibe. Everything except Max Stryker. He was wearing clothes worth 20$ that had been carefully branded up to 5000$, all of them in the latest pastel colours du jure non. He would not have looked out of place in a meeting of young fresh of university investment bankers. Turner had to actually double-check if the young guy in front-of him actually was Max Stryker.

“Hey Mr. Turner. I’ve been waiting to you. Come on in.” he shook Turner’s hand enthusiastically.

Turner just nodded at him.

“Let’s go into my office then we can talk business. Can I get you something to drink?”

“A scotch would nice.”

“Sure thing. I’ve got some Johnny Walker Black Label. Is that alright with you?”

“Sure.” Turner really needed a drink and would have taken grandma’s moonshine if given the offer. Stryker led him past a door that opened into a large, tidy office room. In here everything was glass and stainless steel. It smelt mostly of cleaning liquid with a bit of the ozone smell of a laser printer added as a contrast. The room was dominated by a large glass office desk, with a big black office chair standing with the back to the wall of glass facing the park. In front of the table were two comfortable looking black leather chairs. In a vain attempt to bring at least a vestige of the spirit of rock into this room, Adrian sat down without waiting for permission.

Max Stryker returned with a glass in each hand. One filled with a scotch on the rocks the other with what looked like Coke. He gave Turner his scotch before pleasantly surprising him by sitting on the chair next to him instead of the throne like monstrosity looming behind the glass table. Adrian inhaled deeply before taking a swig from his drink, mostly to ground him back in reality.

“Well that was unexpected.” Turner said looking for a way to open the conversation.

“The apartment right? I know. It’s such a crazy idea. Jim, my marketing consultant, came up with that. At first I was as surprised as you were. I mean, what the fuck? Right? An apartment in and apartment? That must be one of the retardetest things you could possibly do. Especially here where you pay a premium for living space. Right?”

Turner just nodded. He felt a bit like the secret agent being told about the masterplan by the evil guy and did not want to discourage him from talking.

“But Jim made a great case. ‘Nate.’ he said ‘Nate. Just imagine what happens when some idiot from the press comes for an interview? You want to give the media a look at your crib, right? It would seem mighty suspicious if you never, ever gave an interview from your home, right? We need to establish your persona not only on stage but also off. Yeah. I admit it means something of a sacrifice. But you have to look at the big picture. This reinforces your image. Also just imagine what happen if some crazy fan of yours finds where you live. They knock at your door, you for a moment aren’t paying attention or think its the pizza guy or whatever. And bam. They see your house. That can totally ruin your image!’ and I was like ‘Whoa! Jim is totally right!’ also now that I have it it IS kind of awesome.”

Stryker took a swig of his Coke, Turner really hoped that he had added a generous shot of booze into it. The not-at-all rock star leaned back opening his arms. “You know, it’s a bit like having a batcave or something. Also before going on tour or onto a concert it help me gets into the right mood.”

“The right mood?”

“Yeah. The rock mindset. I never wanted to be a singer or a rocker or anything. I always wanted to be an actor and when the oportunity opened up to turned into Max Stryker, I thought, Nathan this might not be exactly what you want to do, but this is such an awesome challenge. I could go total method here and the success is like the proof that I am a real actor. Also I am a great team player. I have all the guys from marketing helping me along. They work very hard to tap into the right types of style that are both in but also undersupplied and then there are of course my songwriters who are really talented people they really spin all the focus test stuff and market analysis stuff into music.”

“Right. So they give you the songs and the style and you then put on a show, for the kids?”

“Yeah. Right. A bit like on a birthday party? There are all these kids that are looking for something cool, adventurous and we we provide them with it. Everybody wins.”

A bit of Adrian’s soul died.

“Man, listen to me talking all the time. You were here with a proposal right?” Stryker asked.

“Yes. You see. I am right now assembling a new band. The idea is to start something new, something revolutionary.”

“Sounds cool. Revolutionary is always a strong theme. Also there is a lot of renewed potential in some seventies stuff that has been out of rotation for a while. But even when you build on established hits, it is always a bit of a gamble to bring them out again. You have to time it right because even the greatest hits can fail to enter the top ten if you push them at the wrong time.”

“Well, we are very confident in our project.” Turner lied. It turned out that lying to Stryker came easy.

“You’ve got balls I’ll giver you that. You have good backing?” this was the main question.

“I have about the best backing you could imagine and a nearly endless supply of money.”

Stryker’s eyes lit up. “Really? Well with some investors that will put some faith and a steady stream of cash into a new musical project you can start out even below top ten. You can play the underdog card. That is strong stuff. I’d love to join! I would need to wind down the old band of course. But that’ll be easy May Stryker is a bit volatile so it would be easy to dissolve the band in some ind of drug and rage fuelled breakdown. Do you want me as Max? I’d do that of course, but I’d love to try to tap into another persona.”

The bright enthusiastic eyes of the man that was not Max Stryker were full of the right stuff but for all the wrong reasons.

“Nathan. I can call you Nathan right?” Turner asked.

“Yeah. Of course.”

“Nathan I see that you are full of potential and energy, I see a successful future for you. Let me just get back to my agent and we will go from there, all right?”

“Sure.” he got even more animated by now. “Sure! Just give me a call and I’m with you withing four to six weeks!”

“Great. It’s time for me to go. Take care Nathan. You’ll here from me soon.” ‘in the news’ Turner added in his head.

Turner left the man who called himself Stryker behind him. Turner had thought that he could have tempted him with a fist full of cash but he already had a fist full of silver.


Between Tracks

Adrian was sitting in a train. One of those transcontinental things that were somewhere between a comfortable aeroplane and a really narrow hotel on iron wheels. He sat in front of a miniature gourmet restaurant table that had been very carefully packed with everything that had to be there, while at the same time leaving enough space for a plate with food. It was rather impressive. He wasn’t impressed though. Not even the strong smooth aroma of the espresso sitting in front of him could lighten his mood. Adrian was looking out of the window a breathtaking vista of what he suspected was the American mid-west passing him by with a slightly forced dignity.

He had no idea how he had gotten here but he got used to it. It’s how things went lately. Arriving somewhere, with a mission. Like the hero of some feel-good 80s TV show. Only that he went from town to town to be confronted with failure. Nothing he had done so far had amounted to anything but disappointment. What was worse was that Adrian had no real idea what he was doing in the first place. He was driven by some half remembered instinct. That did not help.

So Lucifer had told him that music was dying. That it was losing its magic, what made it special. The thing that touched people. After his encounter with ‘Max Stryker’ he had seen one example of dead music. It had been stripped of anything that made it worthwhile. It was still a lot of work to make it work, but it was the wrong kind of work and the way it spoke to the people listening to it was the wrong way.

“It’s rather depressing, isn’t it?” Lucifer asked.

“How am I supposed to stop that?” Adrian was to tired to be surprised by the Devil’s sudden appearance.

“I have no idea. Things like that are far beyond the scope of my abilities, I’m afraid.” he smiled a melancholy smile. “That’s why I need you, Adrian.”

“Well, so far I can only tell you that this little project of yours looks rather hopeless.”

“There is always hope Adrian.”

“You said you had a list of people. I think you should choose someone else…”


“Why? Because so far I have come up with shit. Actually I thought that you appeared here to tell me that I am done.” Adrian said. “At least that way I can get my memories back.”

“Actually I came here to encourage you and to apologise.”

“Apologise? What for?” Adrian now looked directly into the Devil’s ancient eternally young face.

“Up to this point I have to admit,” the Devil looked slightly sheepish, “I may have directed your steps.”

Adrian shook his head. “You set me up?”

“In a way. Yes.”

“What the fuck? Are you serious? So… You send me on this mission of yours, right? And the first thing you do is to fuck me over?”

“It’s not like that Adrian.” there was something in Lucifer’s voice that stopped Adrian’s building rage. For the moment. “Let me explain.” the Devil continued. “The mission is very real and I do need your help. This is a fact. Yes I did direct you towards specific targets. This I did to help you.”

Adrian snorted.

“What did the three people you met so far in common?” Lucifer asked.

“All of them were pretty much useless.”

“How so?”

“Well Murphy was totally burnt out. I was to late. I wish I could have gotten him. No one deserves a fate like him…”

“What about the others?”

“Lockwood would have been great too. But he is established, working his niche. I am not sure why he would not want to come. Maybe he’s afraid or maybe there is nothing for him to gain from this. His music is still pretty much alive. Why should he abandon his art? I can’t quite decide if I should be angry with him or not.”


“And there was of course Stryker. Motherfucking Stryker. I haven’t see such a fake person in my entire life.”

“He looked like a very real person to me.”

“Maybe he is a real human. But his music isn’t. He is one very professional facade. All illusion and no substance. He was the worst of them all. Maybe once upon a time I might have gotten him. But not now.”

“Actually none of them is quite beyond hope. But you are right. They are all very hard to reach by now. I directed you to this people because you need to understand the problems you are going to face. I directed you towards them because these kind of people were floating around your mind. The old musician that needs to get back on his feet again, the veteran player that can become your secret weapon for your new band and of course the promising young musician full of energy that can really bring it all together. And they are also some of the least useful candidates that I could find for you. Now you know what doesn’t work.” Lucifer let that sink in for a moment. When Adrian did not protest he continued. “See? I’m helping you. I will give you another piece of advice. Your search so far has been a bit to superficial. What you need to do is dig deeper. Far beyond the plausible, beyond the obvious, even beyond the sensible. Go crazy!”

“How crazy? Insane crazy?”

“Not quite. But you have to get near insanity. When you have found it you need to look for your inspiration there. Once you have done that your path will be clear.” Lucifer said.


“One last pointer from me and then you’ll free to go. Your next target is The Critic. He loves music. So much so that it has driven him totally bonkers. Visit him. Listen to him. You’ll learn.”

And while Adrian was still trying to make sense of what Lucifer had just told him the train around him slowly faded away.